Opposite of Something

Unwanted
That's how I've been made to feel
Unappreciated
No one seems to care what I think
Unloved
If I'm down no one takes notice
Unhappy
Because I am unable to not care
Understated
I don't say much because it goes nowhere
Unneeded
Everything can be done without me
Unexcited
What brings me up only makes me fall harder

I am spiralling down
Out of control
I am not depressed
I just care too much
No one understands the workings of my mind
Not even I
I rise only to fall harder and farther
But I must rise, it's unavoidable
I want to be cherished
Pampered, hugged and loved
Because right now I feel like
Nothing


LAE

Beatitudinem

I dance, I sing, I smile
Excited, Euphoric, Ecstatic
A moment of pure happiness
No music playing from devices
Just the one from my emotions
My heart dances
No cares, No worries
I accept and love myself
No criticizing voices
It seems they are all asleep
I pray they sleep forever
So that this moment
This happiness never ends

LAE

Faith.

 
I see the weird stares but I don't care because I have lost faith
Faith in what is known as mankind
Faith in myself
Faith in what should be the natural way
Faith that I would eventually find my own place
I'm standing outside in the dead winter cold
Naked as the day I was born
Tears streaming down because there is no tomorrow
Because what is life without faith
As the snow falls all around me 
Take in the beautiful sight
Beauty that I see in everyone but can't find a glimmer in me
I catch one snowflake and stare at its intricacies
How something so small can be so beautiful and exquisitely crafted
Yet I still can't seem to find any faith to go on
As I slowly freeze I think to myself
It is best to be wanted and not had than to be had and not wanted
As my faith went so also did my life

Diwura Edun