Death..It will not dawn on us till we are a hundred years old.
- A teenager
It's only when we truly know and understand that we have a limited time on earth -- and that we have no way of knowing when our time is up -- that we will begin to live each day to the fullest, as if it was the only one we had.
I've lost a couple of friends my age and there about but the full reality of death hit me in the face last week when i lost a friend who was exactly my age.
At this age, we often feel we are invincible. We feel we can do whatever we want and get away with it. If somebody walked up to you this moment and told you that you were going to die tomorrow, you'll probably say, 'God forbid' and laugh it off. yes, thats just how it is with most of us.
I mean, every time i hear the world is ending in 2012, i say a silent prayer to God to let me have my eight kids first before the world ends ( Yes, I said *, i want 8 kids...Lol)
We all pray the prayer to see our children's children but we never fully admit to ourselves that life is God's to give and take as he pleases. We really have no say when we are going to die, whether it is after having 8 kids or when we are all bent over and wrinkled or even when we are about to go play the neighborhood basketball game.
A couple of weeks ago, i was talking with my mum about the rumors of when the world would end (Yeah, i got scared and ran to my mummy after reading the 21-05-2011 prediction in the middle of the night), and she said something that stuck with me since the. She said,
"The world ends for you when you die,
And you can die at this very moment
Or 80 years from now..."
Deep yeah? (It was one heck of a conversation).
There i was worrying about the future and when the world would end when i could very well be dead in the next minute or hour or day.
And then, at my friend's funeral, i could not help but wonder what my funeral would be like and what people would say about me during my eulogy and my tribute..
'She was pretty'
'She was my classmate'
'She was a good Christian'
'She touched my life'
Would people shed genuine tears for me?
Would they rejoice that i'm in a better place or would they simply cry because of the uncertainty of where i'll be?
Would i have touched a life? Or more? yes, i might just be 17 but isn't 17 years enough time to make a difference?
I believe my friend is in a better place right now, i believe she's in heaven. And i also want my family and friends to be comforted by that same thought when i'm gone. I want them to have the assurance that they will see me again and that id doesn't all end here.
Death has dealt me a hard blow and the only solace i find in death is the afterlife. Imagine if this life really ended here, it would all be a waste! A blady waste! Admit it!
Today, through the death of a dear friend, I've learnt a lot, I've come to face the reality of the afterlife/
*This article is dedicated to the friends I've lost in the course of life. Julie, Ayoola, seun, Ella. R.I.P.